天涯之糊涂毛毛虫——天涯海阁

鄙视自己

天涯之糊涂毛毛虫——天涯海阁 — Tue, 20 May 2008 23:32:21 +0800

好长时间没有更新了，今日想写点东西给自己。

在很长的反省与个性的挣扎中，我疯疯癫癫的一路跌打滚爬。直到地震，我才被震醒。那种心中的压抑与沉闷终于得到些许答案，那是种难以表达出的清醒状态，高兴又痛苦。

高兴是因为我的确找到了未来路上的突破点，很多很多，很多需要做的事情。那些事情比我现在做的任何一件事情都有意义，但难度也是很大的，很大很大，我乐意用我的一生去换取，去找到解决的答案。

痛苦而又鄙视自己的是，在灾难面前，不知道自己能为困难的人做些什么，一个连自己都照顾不好的人，到底能不能去很好的关爱别人哪？我的答案是肯定的，一定可以。不会关爱自己，并不等于不会关爱；照顾不好自己，并不等于不会照顾。可是面对这么糟糕的身体，我的确鄙视自己。

面对那么多亟待解决的问题，我后悔莫及，浪费了那么多的时间，而且现在仍然在浪费，鄙视自己。那么多的问题，聪明的你告诉我我该从那里着手去做。我的确很矛盾，毕竟想法与现实相差是很远的。

鄙视自己，真的，很鄙视！一定要为现在的状态找多出口。只想问问：年轻的孩子们，面对灾难，除了捐钱，哀悼外，你知道你们还应该做啥吗？

只希望那些天堂的行者幸福万年长，那些受困的同胞能坚强的站起来，走到底，与灾难对抗到底!

人生：遗憾的艺术——给人哑巴吃黄连似的苦

天涯之糊涂毛毛虫——天涯海阁 — Thu, 24 Jan 2008 19:38:59 +0800

放假了，同学们大多数都回家了，想家了，可是为了实验室我还是得等到腊月29！也许老天也看我想家想的可怜，连日的大雪天气封了回家的路，想回也回不了。真的想回到县城的时候走回家，走上3、4个小时让我清醒清醒。

前年的时候过年老老小小的亲人都在，去年少了一个，今年又少了一个。事情总没有我想想的那么好，那么意外。曾经答应姥姥一件事情，上中专的时候就答应的，可我一直想把它做好，做完美，让它成为她永远的骄傲，所以等到一个毕业又一个毕业，我失言了，当她走了的时候，我的遗憾却又如何去补？

其实在现实生活中，很多都一样，当我们想办法去把某些事情做完美的时候，却老是充满着遗憾。也许很多时候简单才是真。无论啥样的欲望，都要学会控制。无论欲望或大或小，人生都是遗憾的艺术，让人有着哑巴吃黄连似的苦。让人带着希望活着！就像我的文章一样，像我现在这样的写法，等到我老的时候我都写不完，写完这个月的，人家下个月的成果又出来了，得想个办法啊！

因为想的完美，所以错过了很多的风景！

很想听听《你是风儿，我是沙》，也想听听张韶涵的《香水百合》！

被遗忘的盘点

天涯之糊涂毛毛虫——天涯海阁 — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 21:37:47 +0800

2008年了，人人都在2007的最后一天盘点了自己一年成绩，而我啥也没有做，因为我一件像样的事情都没有做成。我盘点啥那？对于那些我看在眼里的细节我不愿意多提，而对于那些我想去做的事情我都弄的有头无尾，我盘点啥？

当很多的同龄人都找到了自己的面包的时候我却还在寻找那属于我的面包，它到底在哪里？我的内心老在流浪，享受着那份自由的同时，也叹息着人生的起伏！我一无所有，我仍在辛苦的找着。

糟糕的网络让人郁闷了许久，特在这里发牢骚，今天很糟糕，吃饭又太急了，胃很不舒服！希望以后能习惯，就算麻木也是好的！

真的很羡慕那些刚找到自己面包的人，也希望自己在找到属于自己面包的时候再去想其它的时候，想必比现在想要稳妥与心安的多！

无题

天涯之糊涂毛毛虫——天涯海阁 — Sat, 5 Jan 2008 11:51:13 +0800

没啥主题,就想乱写写!

最近很多事情都没有做好,又是一团遭,真是恨透自己了!

无论怎样,你要记住要选择一个好的适合自己的环境去发展,区别在于:在好的环境里你可以做事赚钱,很轻松的得到你想的,在不好的环境里,即使你再努力,毕竟活的很辛苦,很多时候是吃力不讨好的,不要天真的以为你可以征服这些,想象短暂的人生,你又为之付出了多少,你失去了多少做其他有意义的事情的时间!

好好想想,不要轻率做决定,否则以后连后悔的时间你都不会有!

My love

天涯之糊涂毛毛虫——天涯海阁 — Wed, 26 Dec 2007 19:57:10 +0800

My love

歌手：westlife 专辑：Coast to coast

An empty street An empty house
A hole inside heart
I'm all alone and the rooms
Are getting smaller
I wonder how I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had
The songs we sang together
And oh! my love
I'm holding on forever
Reaching for a love
That seems so far
So I say a litter prayer
No my dream will take me there
Where the skies are blue to see you
once again my love
Overseas from coast to coast
Find a place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again
My love
I Try to read I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself
From thinking
I wonder how I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had
The songs we sang togetther
And oh! my love
I'mholding on forever
Reaching for a love
That seems so far
So I say a litter prayer
No my dream will take me there
Where the skies are blue to see you
once again my love
Overseas from coast to coast
Find a place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again
To hold you in my arms
To promise my love
To tell you from my heart
You are all I'm thinking of

Reaching for a love
That seems so far
So I say a litter prayer
No my dream will take me there
Where the skies are blue to see you
once again my love
Overseas from coast to coast
Find a place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again
My love
And hope my dream will take me there
Where the skies are blue to see you
once again my love
Overseas from coast to coast
Find a place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again
My love

lonely

天涯之糊涂毛毛虫——天涯海阁 — Wed, 26 Dec 2007 19:52:44 +0800

lonely

歌手：Nana

I am lonely lonely lonely
I am lonely lonely in my life
I am lonely lonely lonely
God help me help me to survive!
Bridge
Remember first time we met day one
Kids in the garden playin games heaven fun
Excitin and amazin havin a real friend of mine
Face to face and eye to eye
Usin our hands to buy and supply
Chillin is cool from January to June
And we still stiked together like the glue
And know the rules
Forever you and I and believe it was clear
If I ever should fall I could count on you with no fear
Runnin out of time I see whos fake
Alone without protection from all them snakes
All for one one for all I was told
Black white yellow no matter if your young or old
Nanas in the house to let you know
What I see is how I feel and damn
Im alone
I am lonely lonely lonely
I am lonely lonely in my life
I am lonely lonely lonely
God help me help me to survive!
Bridge
Everybodys trippin on me
Oh lord come help me please
I did some bad things in my life
Why cant you rescue me cause youve got all I need
I know I got to pay the price
Lonely (2x)
Cheepin thru the streets at night after a fuss and fight
Tears in my eyes Im a man lookin for the light
Dark is the path I know he will rescue me
The lord is my shephard Im cool despite emergency
Whom shall I fear exept the god
Thank you for the blessin and the skils on the mic
Five years we know theres no diggity
Free at last see the light in me
What goes up must come down
Ill be around while you heading towards deathtown
Always look forward hardly never look back
So many tears and the snakes on my jock
Now Im riding in my big fat ride
Your ass is late so look for the line
Nana in the house to let you know
What I see is how I feel so leave me alone
Lonely (3x)
Knock on my door whom you lookin for
A dream or reality enemies at my door
Eyes I realize its fantasize I must be high
So let me live before I die
Once again grab the bottle twist the cap
To survive your life is yours my life is mine
No emotions in this world full of lies
Step my step and be versatile
Love peace and crash thats what its all about
Alone by yourself than you lack theres no doubt about
Im always into something making moves to improve
What would you do if you where in my shoes
Boom a letter oops another suicide
Meet me for a ride at the boulevard
Nanas in the house to let you know
What I see is how I feel and damn Im alone

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I am lonely lonely lonely
I am lonely lonely in my life
I am lonely lonely lonely
God help me help me to survive!
Bridge
Remember first time we met day one
Kids in the garden playin games heaven fun
Excitin and amazin havin a real friend of mine
Face to face and eye to eye
Usin our hands to buy and supply
Chillin is cool from January to June
And we still stiked together like the glue
And know the rules
Forever you and I and believe it was clear
If I ever should fall I could count on you with no fear
Runnin out of time I see whos fake
Alone without protection from all them snakes
All for one one for all I was told
Black white yellow no matter if your young or old
Nanas in the house to let you know
What I see is how I feel and damn
Im alone
I am lonely lonely lonely
I am lonely lonely in my life
I am lonely lonely lonely
God help me help me to survive!
Bridge
Everybodys trippin on me
Oh lord come help me please
I did some bad things in my life
Why cant you rescue me cause youve got all I need
I know I got to pay the price
Lonely (2x)
Cheepin thru the streets at night after a fuss and fight
Tears in my eyes Im a man lookin for the light
Dark is the path I know he will rescue me
The lord is my shephard Im cool despite emergency
Whom shall I fear exept the god
Thank you for the blessin and the skils on the mic
Five years we know theres no diggity
Free at last see the light in me
What goes up must come down
Ill be around while you heading towards deathtown
Always look forward hardly never look back
So many tears and the snakes on my jock
Now Im riding in my big fat ride
Your ass is late so look for the line
Nana in the house to let you know
What I see is how I feel so leave me alone
Lonely (3x)
Knock on my door whom you lookin for
A dream or reality enemies at my door
Eyes I realize its fantasize I must be high
So let me live before I die
Once again grab the bottle twist the cap
To survive your life is yours my life is mine
No emotions in this world full of lies
Step my step and be versatile
Love peace and crash thats what its all about
Alone by yourself than you lack theres no doubt about
Im always into something making moves to improve
What would you do if you where in my shoes
Boom a letter oops another suicide
Meet me for a ride at the boulevard
Nanas in the house to let you know
What I see is how I feel and damn Im alone

爱你一万年

天涯之糊涂毛毛虫——天涯海阁 — Sat, 15 Dec 2007 19:48:32 +0800

生病了，就想粘这首歌，借别人的语言表达我的意思，我深爱我的家人和爱我的人。天凉了，愿朋友们身体健康！工作顺利，一切都好！

爱你一万年
地球自转一次是一天
那是代表多想你一天
真善美的爱恋
没有极限也没有缺陷
地球公转一次是一年
那是代表多爱你一年
恒久的地平线
和我的心永不改变
爱你一万年
爱你经得起考验
飞越了时间的局限
拉近了地域的平面
紧紧的相连
紧紧相连
有了你的出现
占据了一切我的视线
我爱你一万年

谢谢你,TF

天涯之糊涂毛毛虫——天涯海阁 — Sat, 17 Nov 2007 18:26:47 +0800

TF,谢谢你的礼物与关心，ＨＨ铭记于心！

ＴＦ明天就要考试了，一定要全力以赴哦！做就要做最好！

ＨＨ在此为你加油！

花开的日子一定要留一张哦

天涯之糊涂毛毛虫——天涯海阁 — Thu, 15 Nov 2007 21:16:05 +0800

以前不觉得花开有啥好,花落又怎么样,还不是一年又一年,一岁又一岁,其实我更应体会到岁月不饶人啊!一眨眼,20好几了,真的没有欣赏过生活,老是上课,学习,搞点生活费.终于闲了,和几个朋友出去玩,正好是4月,才发现花真的很好看,算算看花的次数,竟然发现屈指可数了,如果此生能活60岁的话,我只剩下36次机会了!真是很可怕的数字!

不久前,姥姥走了,我在想姥姥这一辈子欣赏过花吗?我还没有来得及叫她一起去那,看和欣赏是不同的档次!当你能欣赏的它的时候,你才能体会到它存在的美和意义!可往往很多人没有来得及看时,却已悄然无踪影了!

花开的日子别忘了和家人和你爱的人和爱你的人一起去欣赏,要留一张哦!

为了明天,决不要浪费时间

天涯之糊涂毛毛虫——天涯海阁 — Thu, 15 Nov 2007 21:05:59 +0800

为了明天,决不要浪费时间,这是对自己的警告!

前些日子身体不适,老感觉没精神,所以唯一的念头就是休息,想今生还是悠闲些比较好!

这些日子身体好点了,忽然见发觉没有时间了,时间真的很紧,短短的一生,又会有多少个20年让我挥霍哪?我有那么多的事情都没有时间做,所以我最近是忙坏了,但也乐在其中.

人一辈子无论怎样都好,关键是我信,至于信啥哪?各人和各人的是不一样的,关键是要看你的想法你证明了多少,人要在不断的实践中来证明自己,肯定自己,这就是存在的意义!

人是个神奇的动物,他到底在宇宙扮演啥角色哪?他到底是怎么产生的哪?不得而知!所有的存在都是因为啥而存在哪?我时常想这个问题,可惜没有答案,所以常叹气!因为这个问题让我身边的很多东西都显的那么苍白与无力,聪明的你能告诉我吗?或许达尔文也只对了一点点!

无论明天是多么的不确定,但我还是想去试试!就算没有结果,也不枉存在于此生!

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